Forebidden Fruit

So...long story short, I have a crush on this guy who is more or less forebidden fruit. See, as long as I can remember, I've had this rule where if one of my friends (and even in some cases associates) dates a guy, then he is off limits to me. Now there are terms and conditions, but that's the basic gist of the rule.

Well, my crush is the ex of a friend of mine....and they broke up maybe almost a year ago, but my friend is still in love with this man.........so........

But the thing is, he told a mutual friend there was no way he and his ex were getting back together...that it just wouldn't work. Then he told her that he thought I was kinda cute and that I was "thick" and asked her if I was friends with his ex. The friend changed the subject...

Now...this dude is pretty much the total package. I won't get into his credentials, but he is. And he is soooooo handsome, like he has this boyish quality about him. AND HE HAS DIMPLES and I LOVE DIMPLES....especially on my men!!!

He would be perfect for me, had he not already been with someone who I consider a friend. I respect my friend far too much to tread on dangerous territory and risk our friendship over a guy. Now, if he and I become friends and develop something from that, and we fall in love with each other...now that can't be helped, and somewhere in her heart I'd hope she would understand.

Either way, it's a touchy subject....he is so fine.....damn!!!

So as I turn in to bed tonight, Imma say a special prayer for him cuz he got in a lil situation. I hope he is okay.

Signing off....

*side note*

My prophyte A.O. is my f'in shero!!! I love you, Soror!!!!

You sTuPiD BITCH

"Whatever...like...don't get mad at me over dumb shit and you don't even want this thing to work. You're damning it to hell because you can't have your way. You don't wanna fuck with it no more. Truth is, you've been DEMOTED...status denied...put back at 1st base with the rest of em."

The worse thing a "friend" can do to me is discuss me with an enemy...and then turn around and act like we're friends....DON'T DO ME!!! Now I see that he's been discussing me with people who don't like me, and I don't like them. You don't do shit like that. Don't play both sides of the fence. But I should have known when he said he felt like our friendship was a "slap in the face"...called my prayers for our friendship "bull-shit"....dude, whatever....this too shall pass...And I pray that I won't regret a thing. EVerybody in your life ain't there forever...REASON, SEASON, LIFETIME...

I'm thinking he was reason status. He was not around enough to completely ruin me..but he did waste a tremedous amount of my time. His feelings are hurt because I'm not calling him everyday...but the moment I told him that I have someone new in my life, he should have gotten the damn picture!! What the fuck do I need to call you everyday for when I have a man?!?! Whatever dude...you are on the same level with the rest of these dudes I'm cool with. You are no longer "special"... you are now just like EB, Juan, and Mar...if even THAT! We're just friends now...or at least I wanted us to be friends....but I realize that a friend wouldn't go through so much to SABBOTAGE the friendship, which is what he's been doing for the past 2-3 weeks. OMG...I'm so tired of milling this shit over in my head. I have something to be excited and happy about. So fuck the dumb shit!

Peace

Not Into Speed-Dating

First, I would like to start this post off by stating that I am not talking about the conventional means of speed-dating...the whole going to some location, sitting down at a table and having random people sit at the other seat across from you and try to get to know you in 15 minutes (or less). NO, I'm not talking about that shit, because my life hasn't come to a place where I need to speed-date in that manner at the age of 20.



I'm talking about rushing into a damn relationship out of guilt or pressure. That USED to be me when I was a young teen. These guys would guilt me out of my good sense, and I'd be booed up with them, only to find that they were messing with other girls as well. My problem was that I could NEVER say no to these dudes. They made me feel so bad with their sob stories...I gave in like a dummy and always ended up regretting the shit. What it comes down to is that I was letting them take advantage of me. I was naiive.

So now, at the tender age of 20, I find myself in similar situations, but things are different this time around. I've learned that even though I'm caught up emotionally with the boy, to keep my options WIDE open...

Anyhoo..back to the point at hand. In January of this year, I found myself in a situation with a guy that goes to my school. We fooled around or whatever...to my dissatisfaction...but I guess this dude doesn't have much experience with females, because he can't pick up on the OBVIOUS clues that I don't want to deal with him like that. He's a cool person, but I'm not physically attracted to him anymore...haven't been since that day he came to my room! We never clicked on any other levels, so honestly, I don't get why he's still so persistant. It is THE LAST MONTH of the year, and dude still texting me. No, I'm not going to send you pictures of me! No, I don't want to see your naked dick!! I told him a long time ago I was involved with someone, guess he doesn't care...ass hole!!

The next guy, was this guy I met at a school function. He was cute, or whatever. He asked for my number, I gave it to him. You know, no big deal. I stopped assuming every guy that talked to me wanted to get in my draws a long time ago. He didn't give off that vibe. Okay, so he calls or whatver...and we really have very little in common so I get bored quickly. He wants to get lunch one day, so I invite him to my dorm for some chicken wings and shit. He comes in my room sweaty and hot from walking across campus, plops down on my bed, lays on my AKA pillow like a fool...DUDE!! WTF??! Then he's rubbing all on my back and shit! First of all, WTFB?!?! WHat are you doing? Let's just say, that was the end of that shit. I saw him the other day and he goes, "You been hiding from me, haven't you?"! I wanted to say HELL YEAH...but I kept it moving.

The last dude is really a piece of work. He messaged me randomly on facebook and stuff at the beginning of the fall semester...and then we found out we stayed in the same dorm. Dude has been on my ass like crazy, but since he is kinda flirty with a lot of females, again I tried not to assume that he was trying to get the booty. Okay....extremely long story short...I was at a party this past Thursday, and this dude straight up cornered me in a bathroom, locked the door and asked me why he didn't have a chance with me, when CLEARLY I had told him 10 minutes before that I didn't see him in that way. Then he facebook-chatted me yesterday and was like, "Why did you run from me at the party?" I was like....I wasn't running, dude. He was like, "I wanted to take advantage of you when we were in that bathroom, but I controlled myself". Something inside me went off like an atom bomb. I told him that what he had just written was NOT something you tell a female! You don't know what my past was like, if I've been "taken advantage of" before. He was like, "I don't see what's wrong with me expressing the way I feel". I was like, "That's just something you don't say. It sounds really bad!" Then he proceeds to tell me that he finally got a chance to take a peek at my ass in " those tight pink jeans" I had on at the party. WTF?!?! Nigga, you sick!

So I give you these scenarios to say this: None of these young men ever approached me in the right way. All they did was initiate conversations. From there they went assuming that since I say, "hey" back I want them to jump my bones, marry me, or be my lover. None of them ever took the time to get to know me....all conversations revolved around them and their freaky fantasies (guy #1), their boring life in general (guy #2), or their boring freaky life (guy #3). Questions about me centered around me getting involved with them in some kind of manner. I think guy #2 wouldn't have been so bad if he wouldn't have made such a bad impression in my room that time. You just don't lay your hot, stankin, sweaty body down on somebody's bed like that, ESPECIALLY when you don't even really know them!

I feel like these guys were trying to rush me into relationships without getting to know me first, and this pisses me off. I'm more than just a pretty face, and I'm WORTH getting to know!! None of them EVER asked if I was involved with someone else...I mean, what happened to dudes asking up front, "You got a man??" I mean, they don't do it anymore and I think it's because they don't care...OH BUT THEY SHOULD! Guy #3 is learning the hard way, because I think I hurt his little pride IN PUBLIC at that party. He should have come correct!

I told Guy #1 I was involved a while back, and he ignored...I mean, what do these fools want me to do? They all have good friendship qualities, but they'd rather skip that and jump head first into a FUCKED up relationship...and I'll be damned if I become a statistic on UAB's campus! That's why i don't fuck with UAB dudes now!

The moral of the story is: in order to get with me, there has to be an initial connection (check), and an ESTABLISHED friendship (all were lacking). Therefore, certain details about our lives should be shared...not forced out. My longest lasting, and best relationships blossomed out of real, true friendship...Like the one my hunny and I share now. We've been friends since '06...we KNOW each other, and most importantly, we are COMFORTABLE around each other! That's what I'm looking for. I heard it somewhere..."Comfort is the only thing in your life you have control over." You control what your environment is 9 times out of 10 and whether or not you can deal with the setting...That's my point.

So to those 3 guys, and others who may potentially want to try me...I'm not into that quick shit! Get to know me first, and then we'll talk (LITERALLY!)!!!

Shout-outs to my REAL homeboys: EB, Mar, Bran, Juan, BMC, Quin, Merl, and Bookie

And to my BOO: HOUSTON!!!!!!

I'm Going Through

I talk so much shit. And I can own up to it, and admit that. All it took was a 4hr-long conversation with "him" to make me put things into perspective and to stop being so dramatic about our situation. I came to the realization that I'm gonna have to go into this with no expectations. Like he said, "Just live". I need not try to plan every moment we may spend together. What for? Things very seldom go as planned. And I just want to enjoy the time we DO get...because it comes few and far between.

I am guilty for semi-planning, because I don't want to not have A CLUE of what's gonna go down, but I'm practically leaving it all up to him and chance, and I hope everything works out to the both of our likings.

I wish y'all could understand what this boy does to me. He gets inside my head, says what I'm thinking. I could be lying down, not saying a word, and he'll know exactly how my body is positioned and what I'm fixing to ask him next. He knows what I like without me having to tell him, and maybe to a fault. I never thought about it before, but what if he's able to read the minds of every girl he's ever talked to before me?

His bff is a female, so maybe he's use to it. He told me from jump that he's able to read MOST people extremely well. But there has to be more to him reading me, than just a knack of sorts...some quirky talent. I'd like to think that I'm somewhat more special than other girls in the past, scratch that...those hoes can't hold a candle to me. Some of our conversations get very philosophical, political, societally-charged that you'd think we were politicians from opposite sides of the spectrum.

I am 4 months his senior, but he is mentally and emotionally on a level that surpasses a lot of guys I know who are his age up to 4 years older...what's with that? He makes me laugh uncontrollably, we argue for the sake of it, which I think keeps things interesting. Nothing wrong with a little lively debate every now and then. We have a lot in common, he's genuine...and when I say this I mean, genuinely HIM. He claims to be no one but himself. He owns up to his Geminian ways, embraces them, and realizes that even he can not figure himself out at times. I can respect that.

He's considerate and kind (generally), but UBER sarcastic and caustic, which are parts of his sense of humor and personality I adore. If it were not for those traits, he would just be your typical shy guy. He has this look he gives to people when they get on his nerves. If you catch it, you will die from laughter.

I guess I could go on and on about him. Many may not understand. He's unique and different, yet so much like myself. One of the realest niggas I know, who doesn't deal in falsities (word?). He's laid back, well-manered, armed with street sensibilities, yet cultivated with intellect (sounds good...he'd blush). Am I SPRUNG??!

My only fear is that I don't/won't live up to his expectations of a partner/mate, if time ever leads us to the crossroads of friend to mate. Yes we are only friends. But...he gets me, in ways that no other has. I'm impressed. And for someone who has seen em all, that doesn't happen to easily anymore. I'm impressed with the whole of him, who is not perfect by any stretch, and has flaws like everyone else. And I accept him for who he is, even with his mood swings and wishy-washy, flightly behavior. Maybe tried to get him to be more considerate/ compassionate once or twice, but never went about trying to change what makes him, him--different.

I don't know...just trying to relieve some emotional/mental baggage. I got a thang for him, and he knows... If only I could get inside that thick ass skull and discover his true, uninhibited feelings about me.

You like me? DUH! But what about me? Right...if he can't answer this question after 7 months of intense "getting to know you" conversations, I'm going to righteously beat his ass the next time I see him, and then proceed to ween myself off of the thought of being with him (yeah right). But I honestly would be seriously hurt and dillusioned.

On second thought. I can answer this question on my own. Even though he dislikes people assuming, I can assume that he has put up with my dramaticism, pessimism, negativity, hopeless, whiny, bitter, back-track, past-dwelling, et al ways for this long because he sees the great potential in the woman I am SOON to become. The transformation had already started, late February, yes with a few back-slides. But I was recently awarded with encouraging words on toning down my dramatics. Was I thrilled?! HELL YES! I undoubtedly seek his approval where maybe I shouldn't, but I can't help it. He does the same to me, asking at times, "Is that bad", when he questions a judgement he's made. I dunno folks.

Ours is a complicated scenario, that will only grow in complexity as school lets back in and new, fresh faces arrive on our respective campuses. Will another girl come in with 10x the fire that I have, prettier, and smarter than me? Will I lapse back into lust for one of several of the guys I pined for months ago? Who knows, but God Himself. But it is my sincere prayer, that God gives this thing with he and I a chance. We've already been through some storms as it is. We are constantly testing each other's loyalty to the other...our friendship might as well be...*sigh* But I digress.

Like I said, in the weeks to come, as I prepare myself to see him face to face for the first time since April, I know that it is CRUCIAL to take things as they come and let the chips fall where they may. I just hope my emotions and dramaticism don't get in the way of an otherwise "JUMPIN" vay-cay in LA. Don't wanna ruin it for everyone else. CNB attitude will be activated July 1, 2008 at 12am....watch for it!!

What do you do when they try to come back?

They being friends you have become disenchanted or estranged with. Do you accept them back with open arms, or do you turn a blind eye and a deaf ear to their pleas of forgiveness? Naw, this ain't a two-way street. I'm speaking strictly on, if a "friend" does YOU wrong, realizes the error of THEIR ways, and decides to come back...what do you do then?

This situation has presented itself to, not me (as of late), but my bf. And I commend her for the way she's been handling the issue since it first arose. She was definitely the mature one, in all aspects, and even today the disenchanted friend offered his sincerest apologies for being immature.

I asked her when things first broke out what would she do if he should come back and apologize for his behavior. She simply said that she didn't know. This situation was not cut-and-dry and the whole thing REALLY hurt my bf. She was furious that someone she called a good friend and brother could turn on her in an instance over another female....

They are in the process of straightening things out, but we all KNOW that things will never be the same between them, and they will probably never really feel comfortable around each other. What's done is done, and has become past issues. Me and CT are one in the same that we don't necessarily hold grudges--but we do. We tend to never forget how someone treats us (good or bad), especially a "friend".

And this leads me to my next question....Can men and women be "just friends"? Now I have seen this issue discussed and debated many times over different message boards, blogs, and real-life social settings. But I never interject, because until recently, I had never had an opinion on the topic. After what happened to my bf...I think about it often. Can you be just friends with someone of the opposite sex? Without complicating things and saying, "Well we were attracted to each other at one point and tried to talk, but it didn't work, and blah blah blah..."--I mean can you truly, honestly, be in a FRIENDS ONLY SITUATION with a member of the opposite sex?

My opinion is of course...yes and no.

Yes--because there are some people that God brings into your life to make you smile, forget about your troubles, and talk to, but only for a season. There have been a lot of guys in my life that I saw as just friends. Whether they like/liked me then/now is irrelevant. I guess they figure if they can't have me romantically, they'll settle for friendship. And I wouldn't have it any other way.

No--because (this is more complicated) Most times than none you and a guy/girl have been or are attracted to each other...shit, that's why you went over and spoke in the first place! And no matter what, in the midst of taking another's hand in commitment, the attraction will still linger on and has the potential to fuck up a good relationship.

There is this guy that likes to call himself my "brother". How we became friends is WEIRD and fucked up (to me), because it was on some stalkerish shit. We were at a summer camp our church was holding and there was this guy that I really liked. The dude had BEEN asked for my number, and I gave it to him. One night, I get a call from a number I didn't recognize (I was still answering those back then), and low-and-behold, it's the "brother" dude. I was shocked and appalled because I don't find him attractive at all, and we're not even on the same level! I was mad and asked him, "How did you get my number?" and he's like the dude I liked gave it to him...

Y'all know I called HIS ass and cussed him out right? You don't give my number out like that!! And the mofo was just laughing his head off, it was so funny to him. He knew that at the time, I found the other boy to be VERY annoying! Anyway, I felt like, for the "brother" dude to go through all this trouble to get my number without even notifying me, he must like me or something. And I really think he did. He would talk about girls, and about me "hooking him up" with friends, but now I see that this was just a ploy to throw his scent off my trail. He didn't wanna come off as too interested, as his homeboy had already made waves with me.

Needless to say, he continued to vigillantly pursue me, I guess as just a friend (one day he called me 16 times in the span of about 5 hrs) and he got no--where because I was annoyed as hell with him. And to this day, he is just a friend. He still looks the same, acts the same, is THE SAME. He has accepted that I didn't and don't want him like that, and I have accepted that if he can't have me in love, to at least let him be my friend. I have grown fond of him and can stand him calling 3 times a day sometimes. He started calling me his little sister around 11th grade year, and we rolled with it. He has no choice but to be my friend if he wants me in his life...cuz I can't give him anything else.

But then there's the other side of the token (which I will try to be brief about, but I could write a book). Guys that YOU like that YOU have to settle being friends with (grrr,*sigh*). It happens to me quite frequently, but I'll get over it. Going into detail causes me great emotional pain, so I'm gonna leave it alone and just say that, through all of MY disappointments with guys, I know that as Brittni says, "God has something for me that's gone blow "us" out the water". I can't wait to see and know who that is, but I obviously have no choice, so I will let it be.

I have to continue to do me, regardless...I believe he's right around the corner in the next phase of my life...we'll just have to wait and see...:-)

Last Night...

...I didn't even get an answer (P. Shitty).

Yeah you didn't get a damn answer because that bitch don't love you no mo'! Just kidding (not really), but this post is just the recap (kinda) of last night.

Britt picks me up in the PT (her new car...'06 model bih--get yo weight up!), we ride to Hooters. We park and I call Tamara (who lives down the street from the restaurant, but still manages to be late--luv ya Tam). She tells me she'll be there soon. We call Hanae to see where she's at and she tells us she's waiting in the parking lot too. We (me and Britt) get out of the car and meet Hanae at the door. Hugs and greetings are exchanged because we haven't seen each other in some months.

We go in and get seated...**we have the Hooters experience**...our Hooters Girl (waitress) is a little bit (lotta-bit) ditzy, we (me, Britt, Hanae) sit and wait for about 15-20 minutes for Tamara to arrive, all the while wondering if Keturah was gonna show up.

Ket and Tam walk in together and get seated as well. We eat and talk and laugh really loud. Then we get our checks and leave (I'm not goin into detail...if you haven't, you should experiene Hooters for yourself). I'd go back in the future...the food was okay (the fries were GREAT!!!).

Then we go out in the parking lot and parlay. I take pics (as I always do), and then me and Britt demonstrate the "Soulja Boy" and "Spiderman" dances to Hanae and Ket. We laguh and then walk out to the PT so the girls can see it. Then to make a long story short (you just had to be there), we ended up at Bruster's for ice cream. I had orange sherbet. it was...okay...not tangy enough for me...but *shrugs* what can you do?

Anyway, we danced in the parking lot after eating the ice cream, and then Tamara's mom called and we parted ways with hugs. Britt (BJ) is leaving us to go back to school early (8/7). She will be an RA this year along with 3 of my other DIAMOND sisters--Kandace, Jessica S., and Charna. Congrats girls, have fun and don't do the Freshmen in too bad!! Congrats also to my boy Anthony. He's an RA this year too!! Now for the pics (there were more, but they are hella blurry, so just deal).

Britt's '06 PT Cruiser (in my driveway)

Hanae and Keturah

Umm...
My girls (Hanae, Britt, Ket, and Tam in the back)

Crazy heffa, Tam!

Ice---cream---

Alright now, I'll holla. *I apologize for the way my camera was acting. The pictures themselves are very blurry :-(

Something that's been bothering the hell out of me...

*sigh*...so July has been one of those random months in my life where I'm completely stressed out and everything seems to be going wrong...I mean, family acting crazy, friends acting shady, close friend being hospitalized, the list goes on. But what seems to be bugging me the most out of those things mentioned, is the quality of the friendships I hold with some people.

I mean, for years, I have been able to call these people "friend", without any question or doubt in my mind, but I have begun to wonder..."are these people really here for me like I'm here for them, or like they say they're here for me?" Shit, I mean I give my last to a friend before I even think of giving something to a family member (sad, I know...but if u were in my family, you'd understand), and I naively expect the same in return, only to get a slap in the face, or ignored all-together. That shit really hurts. And as I've stated many times before, as I grow older I'm starting to figure out who my REAL friends are and who is really on my side for the long run.

I'm tired of muhfuccas in my life who only want to leech, and have me do for them, support their every endeavor, listen to their bitching and moaning and give my all for their cause. These same assholes could give two shits about my birthday, if I was sick and in pain, or if my grandma was somewhere laid up in a hospital...that's just my take on the situation. And it's sad, cuz I always give my last.

Well, my best friend of 16 years (yes we've been friends since the age of 3) has just been thru hell with a medical condition she has, and has had since she was 8 years old. In all of our years of friendship, we have only had maybe 2 fights (once over some literal elementary shit, and another time when we were starting to grow apart)...but even then they weren't fights, just disagreements. We went to the same school for 12 years and then ended up at different high schools, but still remained close. I was there for her graduation, and she was there for mine. We've helped each other thru the "boy problems", laughed, cried, shared secrets, and even went thru the loss of another close friend of ours (not a death, we just grew apart from this person).

But anyway, she's been sick for about a month and I get a call earlier this month from her, explaining that she had been hospitalized. My immediate thought was panic, but when she said she was okay I was relieved. She then proceeded to tell me that she had made a point to call all her "friends" she thought would like to know she was in the hospital. I said, "you better than me" because I would have had my mom do it, or not have done it at all...but anyhoo...so we talk and catch up, and I say good night. (This is a Friday night)

The next day was my uncle's (who I am severly disenchanted with at this time) wedding, family had come in from out of town and everything...oh this event was gonna be bougie as HELL...but I digress. I speak with my bf's mom and let her know that if they were going to the hospital on Sunday (she was at a hospital in another city), to let me know so I could ride up with them and visit her. She said cool...

The wedding comes and goes and Sunday gets here. My bf's parents decide that they are tired and are not going up after all. My bf was furious at her parents, because she said they knew she was lonely and they knew they weren't coming up when they had talked to her earlier that day...why wait til 8pm to drop the bomb? We talk a little that night and I let her get her rest.

Fast foward to the end of the week...My bf was supposed to be getting out that Wednesday, but they keep her in because she has a new IV. I called her frequently throughout the time she was there, just to let her know someone was thinking about her. Well, one day, I'm talking to her and she sounds so sad...I ask..."has so-and-so called to check on you?" She replies dryly, "NO". And it is at this point I am shocked and appalled. My bf shoots off all of the names of these so called "close friends" who did not even pick up the phone and dial her number once while she was in the hospital...Including her boy friend (they had just broken up). I was not expecting people to be so nonchalant about a good friend of theirs being in the hospital...it made me sad and mad...

Fast foward to this past Saturday, I'm at my bf's house for a visit. And she enlightens me on some things. We were talking about how "X-amount" of people didn't call her, namely a few good friends and a guy back at school who was interested in her. Then she said these words, "Girl, some of my own family didn't even call me while I was in the hospital, so what makes me think friends would do any better?...we've got to stop expecting people to do for us what we would do for them...everybody ain't like us". I was still mad, but she was right. I mean, my mama had BEEN saying this very thing, but it took my best friend, fresh out the hospital and trying to recuperate, to let me know the real deal. It always takes several reminders from people I trust in order for me to understand a concept like that. Call me slow, but meh....

But what I'm trying to get at, is that I've broken my pockets, my back, my dreams, my promises to family, and my spirit, for some of these so-called friends, and I'm tired of doing that. I think back to my 19th birthday, and how a few of these "friends" conveniently forgot I existed. But BOY, when their born-day came around, did they have their hands out or what?! That's what I'm saying. And it's easy to say, "Well just stop hanging with them then" or "Cut they ass loose" or "Fuck em, move on" But actually doing that is the hard part. When you have known someone for 6+ years, you begin to get close to them and they actually become an esential part of your life, whether it be good or bad. And sometimes we just choose to deal. It's synonomous to an abusive relationship. You want to leave, but sometimes it's much more easier said than done.

Well, enough is enough....here is what my myspace "About Me" section reads: I'm at the point in my life where I'm tired of the bull shit and I'm tired of sugar-coating shit just so folks won't get their feelings hurt. I've come to realize that 9/10 the same folks don't give a shit about my feelings or what I want. I will say that I want positive, happy, and intelligent people in my life, not wannabe's who think that they are grown because they can stay out all night, smoke, drink, fuck, and the like. Doing these activities do not MAKE you grown because children can do all of that shit too if given the opportunity. I like people who are about change and action, who like to make a difference in their community, on their campus, in their city, and/or in their neighborhood. I don' discriminate against religions, although I am a Christian (Baptist) and prefer to keep it that way. I just need friends that are real and ABOUT SOMETHING!! "If you don't stand for something, you're bound to fall for anything"!

And with that folks, I'm out! Shouts out to my bffs CT, QT aka Bacon Bit, and my dawg4lyfe, BJ!!!!

Me and CT (@ her apartment)

Me and BJ (@ school--Declaration Day)