HI THERE

*I look hella relaxed and happy....(I really wasn't...I was pissed), but I want to give the facade that I'm in chill-mode for the time being.*


Hey y'all!! Sorry for the lack of updates, but I've had technical issues with my pc (that is working now...for the moment), and I'm also studying for dreaded FINALS, but I decided to take a break for a minute to relax...So yeah, check out Beyonce's song, "Halo" off of her I Am...Sasha Fierce album...my friend Bennie put me on it!! Great song...reminds me of my boo when he's not trippin.

Pray for me that I do well on my finals tomorrow. I have 2.5 tests to take (Chem @ 8am, Genetics @ 10:45 and a retake in genetics). I need a B in genetics and at least a C in Chem...like FOR REAL! My GPA, my stint at UAB, and my sanity depend on these two grades!!! After these exams, I will be FREE again until Jan.7th!!! I hope all of you are well! I will be making blog rounds after 12pm tomorrow...or later...I'm sure you understand, lol.

Love y'all! Peace...OH, and HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY, EBD!! I love ya! :-)

Anyhoo...

Halo - Beyoncé

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Can't Get Right...The Frustration of 11/9 til Now...

So I've bet you've noticed that I've been gone for about a week...besides having a nervous breakdown Sunday night...my computer decided it wanted to ACT THE ASS, once again, and now good friends, I am without a pc for the umpteenth time.

The AC adapter is shot. But I ordered a new one on Monday and am expecting it very soon (fingers crossed). Exams are approaching, and though this is a time for study, if my computer issues get straightened out, I plan to blog regularly, because honest to God, this stuff is relaxing.

I'm blogging from a desktop pc in my dorms computer lab right now, and I feel like I'm being watched even though there's no one in the room...I hate it, but I just had to let y'all know why I've been gone.

But yeah, this week can be chalked up as one of the worst ever thus far...Broke down on Sunday, Crammed for a genetics test on Monday/ didn't get to turn in my Calculus computer assignment, Tuesday was just whack, Wednesday was blah (a ray of sunshine was the kid I tutor, but I found out he's moving to Florida...so :-( . Then I forgot I signed up to make gingerbread houses for this habitat for humanity thing....OMG! Not only did I have to buy stuff for the house (with money I didn't have), but I felt like I was being rushed...I wanted to scream last night. Today I had my Chem 2 Lab Final exam...I think I did the best I could (which ain't bad), considering 80% of the questions were vague as hell....whatevs

So yeah...I talked to some old flings and my boo of course...I GOTTA post that picture once my pc is back up...I don't care anymore...

But tell me why is it that when you find someone you wanna get serious with, all the dudes from your past (or females in the guys cases) wanna come back and try to holla...like they got radar or some shit and are like, "Oh, I was just checkin on you...how you been?" I'm like, "Jigga, you wasn't studying me 2 wks ago when I was all alone...did I just randomly cross your mind?" Which I'm sure is the case, but it's just so weird how the times synchronize like that...it's almost ANNOYING!!!! Anyhoo...I think that's enough for now. I love you all. Please keep me in your prayers. I used to think that I worked well under pressure until this week when my hair started fallin out because of the stress...It'll get better! November 25th (Thanksgiving Break) can't come soon enough!

LOL....Peeping In

I miss writing, and I miss y'all...

I've been without a computer for...well...EVER...well, I can't say completely devoid of one, but defintiely without my OWN computer. But God looks out for His children. I'm supposed to be getting a laptop from my boss soon...like this Friday soon, so I'm looking forward to that.

Quick updates:
My Uncle passed away this Sunday. Keep the James/Evans family in your prayers. Thanks

I am officially in LOVE with Ques.

I HATE MATH AND CHEMISTRY!!! I flunked BOTH of the first tests in each class.

Boy troubles abound....no end in sight.

I LOVE MY AKA

The Doctors from THE PACT are coming to my school on the 23rd. Wanda Sykes is coming on the 27th...uhhh....

I will be updating as SOON as I get a computer. I have a story for you all.

I'm discontinuing my lil rundown of my vacation. I'll probably just post the pics at some other time.

I'm broke as a joke, and amazed at how HIGH gas prices are!! What a joke!

Jazmine Sullivan AND MAXWELL are coming to Birmingham on Nov. 10th!!! How exciting!!!!

Go cop Jazmine's album which comes out on the 23rd.

Okay, I'll be back some other time. Thanks for the encouragement, Eb! It's hard...but I'm trying. Talk to you guys soon!!!

What to expect tomorrow...

HEY! Just wanna let you know what you can expect tomorrow from moi.

--So You Think You Can Dance Commentary --THE TOP 08 (hopefully get a vid too)--

--You Know You...(hmmm...wonder what it will be).

I may hit y'all up with the Lollipop Day schpill on Saturday. Next week (esp. Monday) will be interesting to say the least...

Soon as I get Hoooooome

"I'll make it up to you, Baby I'll do what I gotta do..." -Faith Evans

Uhhh...I'm posting the Keri Hilson vid on here, along with a song of hers I happened upon last night while dowloading off of lime wire.


I'm also posting the Smell Yo Dick vid. Love that song...it's so stupid, but funny!!! K...see ya in a bit!

Hmmm...

Hey all! Hope you enjoyed your Fourth of July!! Mine was pretty fun. My cousin had a sleepover at which I and two of her friends were in attendance. They are all older than me, so I learned some stuff over the weekend for sure. It is so interesting to meet new people and learn about their life struggles. Even people a couple of years older than you can teach you valuable lessons about life. One girl, T. has been through some STUFF, but through her walk with Christ she has become a better person and likes to reach out and help others succeed and maximize their potential. C. is just all around COOL! Just a fun person. And my cousin J. just keeps it REAL! I truly did enjoy myself. And shouts out to my auntie for the hospitality. Great as always! I will try to get some pictures up from the weekend if I can. Last Thursday we went to the Montgomery Biscuits baseball game (our city team) and watched the fire works display at the end. I took pics of that too.

Uhhh...so how was your holiday?

Hope you all have a great Monday. It's time for me to make my blog rounds. HOLLA!

July was supposed to be "ME MONTH"...

And it may still turn out that way, but I feel like I'm being pulled to every corner of the state this month by friends and family, and I just want to know will I EVER get a break?! Anyhoo, not in the mood to really write anything today. I'm famished, and didn't get lunch like a dummy for cashing my check and stuff. Whatever.

Birthday Shout-Outs:



Jerica, my soror is 20 today (1st)

Jessica T turns 20 on the 7th

Auntie Lois turns ___ on the 13th

Jessica S., one of my Hampton Hotties, turns 20 on the 16th

Isaac, my lil bro, will be 8 on the 27th

Happy Birthday, boos! May God bless y'all with MANY MANY MORE!!!

I'm OUT!

OH GOD, I'm SOOOO HAPPY!!!

So, I talked to my hunny last night! Was I glad? HELL YEAH!!! He doesn't know how much I've missed talkin to him, but things happen--shit comes up that we often can not forsee or do anything about. First of all, I was soo nervous about calling because it was the house phone. From experience, I do not like calling guys on their house phones when they live with parents. That shit is embarrassing.

You know how some mamas can be...just plain ole MEAN!! But I conquered my fears and dialed his number. He answered, and I immediately let out a sigh of relief. He was like, "Long time, no hear from"...and I honestly thought, "Jigga, it ain't MY FAULT!!!" And he knows it. Just tryna be messy, lol. It's all good tho. "I [like] me some him!" YES I DO! We talked for an hour and then he had to go. He had a death in the family that he is dealing with so I might not get to talk to him the rest of the week if I don't call today...hmmm...he could always call me tho.

But he prolly won't.

Anyhoo...I just got done doing some research on My 20 Pearls, and I am sooo sooo soo inspired by these women, it's ridiculous! History is amazing, any kind...and reading is FUNDAMENTAL! I deemed this month AKA Research Month, but of course this is my own personal research. As a soror, it is my duty to defend and uphold the standards, characters, and integrity of my ILLUSTRIOUS organization. I can't do that if I don't know how AKA was started, why, who, what, where, and how...get my drift? So each week, I will be embarking on a journey of knowledge, delving into the many facets that make up Alpha Kappa Alpha history. I'm excited, and I have so much to learn. As intelligent human beings, we should never want to stop learning ANYWAY! So, yeah...this is one of my mantras for the rest of the year...a "thirst for knowledge".

And I just want to say, I love you STG...without you, I'd have no outlet...writing messes with my carpel tunnel. Smooches! :-)

YES! I'M AN A-K-A and YES! I'm HERE TO SAY...

Greetings! Yeah, yeah I been gone for a minute, but now I'm back with the jump-off! LOL. No seriously. March and yes, April have been hectic. If you can't tell by the name of this post, yes! I am one of the NEWEST members...and OH SO PRETTY soror of the IOTA PHI chapter of ALPHA KAPPA ALPHA SORORITY, INCORPORATED! #16 SP '08--Astonishing 39--UAB!

This semester has been HELL! But it is coming to a close in a matter of about 2.5 days. Thank you Jesus. My journey to AKA has not been easy, and I am still trucking, still learning, still absorbing, and still receiving gifts (lol). God has been so good to me. Yes I have flunked a few tests and quizzes this semester, but I haven't flunked any classes, (at least I don't think) and I'm still in ALD with an officer position, and all that good stuff.

Seems like a lot of the folks I went to highschool with ('06) are going GREEK as well! Congrats to Dyron, Brian, and Keisha, and any others I forgot.

But when it's all said and done, I'm ready to go home. I'm tired of school and tired of being in this city. I'm broke, hungry, and annoyed!!! Plus, I'm writing this blog from a computer in the Rast PC lab (UGH!). May 3rd needs to hurry up so I can get the hell out of dodge. It sucks to not have a working computer, I can't put my pics up from probate, the PINKnic or anything...:-(

I'M READY TO GO HOME!

And oh, I didn't mention what went down between me and THAT BOY...but we had some drama, Lord. But every relationship (friendship or otherwise) has its ups and downs, and I'm happy to say we made it through! Thank you, Jesus, because that boy...young MAN does something for my soul, lol. He's good for me...or a good part of my life that if he were to go away, I'd be beyond hurt. Like when we had our situation, I was OUT OF IT! SO SAD and SO DEPRESSED, but I had to hide my feelings from the likes of a nosey bitch. Even still....with him, I believe the roles have been reversed...he likes me "deeper" than I like him now...or maybe that's his whole plan...to make me think that, when in actuality I like him more than I did when we first started talkin...WOW...we been talkin for 6 months...as friends...but with an "understanding"...if that makes any sense. Who woulda thunk??

We're close tho. But not as close as I wanna be. He's my boo...I notice that I look to him for approval on a lot of things, but he doesn't always give it to me. I think that's what I like about him, is that he has his own mind and is not easily swayed by the pu***...

But enough about me and him. Yeah, just wanted to slightly catch you up on the events of my life. Hopefully I will be putting up pictures of me and my 39 soon! BUSY BUSY BUSY!! And liking it, I guess!

Until then, I'll HOLLA and SKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE-WEE!

FROM MY MYSPACE BLOG..."In a Few Words...or not so much"

I don't feel like retyping stuff, so here ya go. Happy New Year, Happy Belated B-day to all the Jans and Febs...sorry...life's been a busy bitch lately! (Not complaining). Ummm...Hope you enjoy.

"So...Life has had it's share of ups and downs since 2008 started. I can't say it started off exactly in the manner or fashion I would have liked for it to, but hey, that's life! Nothing's perfect. What I came to realize though, is that I'm experiencing life for what it really is. There is no sugarcoating (or not much of it), I have to work for what I want (like for real), and take the good with the bad.


In the past couple of months (particularly January), I have talked to at least 3 different guys, but I still have madd feelings for that one...yes he's on my top friends list...deal with it. Things are moving slow tho, so slow that I won't allow myself to stop talking to other guys altogether. I don't even think that's what I'm supposed to do. Should God allow us to be together, it will happen regardless, right? I hope he knows that he has a special place in my heart, but that I can't continue to just wait around for him to decide if he wants to try to make something work between us. Can't do it. Won't do it.


On another note, I consider myself a mentor. I have two younger cousins (13 year olds), who I feel look up to me. I love them dearly, and it's kinda fun watching them grow up and become young ladies. But at the same time, it's scary and annoying. They have this notion that they're supposed to be doing EVERYTHING they see their little friends do. That entails getting weaves, nails done, wearing hoochie clothes, and having lil boyfriends (and doing things with them). You just don't know how bad I wanna beat their lil asses sometimes. Too grown...They're on my top list too...heffas! I love them, but I want them to realize that they need to try to be different. You don't have to follow the crowd or do what everyone else is doing just because you want to fit in. Why not have people follow your example? Why not make your own path? I did it, and continue to do it in my own way. And I will forever be Candice Shanice because of it, not "that girl right there", ya know? Same goes for my lil brother too with his bad ass. Stop worrying about what all the other kids are doing and just do you. That man ain't make that song for nothing. As much as people walk around singing that shit, you'd think people actually LISTEN to the words...and don't. They hear, but they don't LISTEN. And that's one of the MAJOR AILMENTS of our generation.


On another note...friendships. I feel like I'm going through a phase right now. And someone (the guy who has my heart) can attest to this, cuz he's going through the same thing. I'm at the point in my life where I'm like, "If you wanna be my friend, cool...but I'm not gonna force my friendship on you, nor am I gonna kiss your ass just to please you. You take the good with the bad, just like I do with you. And If I get tired of your ass, or vice versa, oh well! It just wasn't meant to be". <------- That's how I feel! People think I'm supposed to be walkin around catering to them and shit. Hell naw, fuck that! The "Please You" phase has come and gone. That's over now, and I'd prefer for you to please me, ya dig! I have a feeling that I may lose a friend or two this year, but if that's the case, I already know that those people were just leaves in my life. The roots or trees will be there for me during and after my hardships just as they are here for me now.


You know how you got those people in your life who feel like you owe them something because they're better than you (so they think). They feel like they got the one up on you or some shit? I'm tired of them mofos!! I'm also tired of people who have a problem with me, but won't address it...instead they look at me sideways or cop funky ass attitudes. Guess what? Bitch if you got a problem, we can solve it one of two ways. You can come to me like a lady and get it dealt with in a proper fashion, or we can take it to the street. But fyi...I didn't and don't want your man....he wanted me. If anything I was lookin out for you, cuz I thought we were cool...guess not. But I'm not finna go outta my way to speak to you or be cordial to you, because OBVIOUSLY, you don't like me anymore, for whatever reason. Guess what? It's not my job to figure out why. I'm clueless, and for the sake of my sanity, choose to remain that way.


But yeah, 2008...what can I say? So much drama has already ensued, and it's only February! I can't say that it won't get worse...more than likely it will. But I'm ready to face this shit head-on. There's really no other way, ya know?! I know...I KNOW God has a plan for my life, just as he has for you, my friends, my family, and my enemies. it's up to me to trust and believe that, ya know? In the words of Kevin P. Turner..."After you've prayed about it, tell me why you worrying too?" Nuff said.


I'm outtie!"

I AM SOOOO SORRY

Hey y'all...I wanna apologize for the TOTAL neglegence and lack of posts in the month of October. SO much has been going on and I have TRULY been busy. This month promises not to be any better, so I want to write at least something while this month is just starting (and it's the weekend). Okay so all that stuff I told y'all I was gonna tell ya...won't be able. It's just too much and too far gone to even try to BEGIN to explain. I will say that the fam came up last weekend for the MAGIC CITY CLASSIC (ASU vs. AAMU) and I had a really fun time. I went to the Continental for the first time and I got to stay at the Double Tree Hotel.

From what my friends are telling me, they had a lot of fun back on campus as well. I'm glad.
Lately I've just been really busy with school work, not too much time for social activities til the weekend. This week coming up is gonna be a HOT MESS, not looking foward to it. I'm an officer of Alpha Lambda Delta Honor Society, a member of the Minority Scholars Program, a member of the Camille Armstrong Memorial Scholarship Stepshow Committee, and I'm attempting to be apart of UAB's chapter of NAACP. On top of that I am in the Gospel Choir and I decided to do Angel Tree for this little girl this year. So yeah, I got a lot goin on, plus the regular academic stuff...and we can register for classes this week too, so I'm stressed about that. Not only do I need to meet with Nate (my advisor) to talk about classes, but we also need to discuss and do my graduation plan and write down the classes I've taken since I started college...WHOOOOOOO...*sigh*

But with every dark cloud there is a silver lining...that silver lining for me is more than likely always going to be some boy...but in this case...a BONAFIDE GROWN ASS MAN!!! I am SOOO happy....and we're not even dating or really talking. He just randomly friended and messaged me on facebook, and I've been floating ever since. He really has no idea how happy he makes me...just thinking about his NAME puts a smile on my face.

He's the most mature, kindess, most sophisticated, intelligent, Christ-centered young man I have EVER known. I don't have to worry about corrupting him, because I myself am not THAT bad, lol... He really has inspired me to be a better person and a better Christian...the Fabolous and Ne-Yo song really comes into play in this situation.

But anywayz, I'm just going with the flow. I wrote a spoken word piece to express some of the feelings I've been going thru with the whole "man" situation...I'll post it soon.

Roommates are roommates...can barely live with em, but it'd be DULL without em. Happy Late b-day to my roommate and sidemate Kasey!! She's 21 now! Tip one back for me boo, cuz I don't drink! lol...Anyway, this was just a kind of piece-together-the-time post, since I've been absent for a whole month. I will be back asap with the birthday post and with the spoken word piece...and maybe some other stuff.

Oh and Imma try to get holidays up as soon as I can! Alright, luv ya!! I'll HOLLA!!!

I LUV MY UAB

Just wanted to let y'all know I'm back at school, b ut not quite back on the grind yet. Classes start on Wendesday. But anyway, I'll come back later and give a brief synopsis on my first day back in da Ham and what I hope will go down this first week of school. Hopefully I will update every night to tell y'all what's poppin...but who knows. Well, WTYS!

**YES!!! Praise God, it's...

**I've been sitting up here bored out of my mind, looking at "GW Bush pictures" and laughing my ass off! Tomorrow should be kind of exciting, seeing as I have an announcement to make. I should be posting a bit more tomorrow as well.

Today I'm going out with a few of my girls (goin to HOOTERS), and it should be fun. We wanted to get together before BJ went back to school. I might post some pictures of the night if I get them up before Sunday. Anyway, I don't really have much to say so Imma end this.

Have a good one! "Might as Well, tomorrow FRIDAY"--Auntie Helen (originally from some dude she went to high school with)

About Me

Note: I'm going to treat this blog as if it were my actual paper diary, so if you don't likey, you can keep it movin...comprendez-vous? Bien!

Anyway, I thought I'd do a post going into a little detail about me and my life, and where I'm coming from and trying to go.

I grew up in the South, Alabama to be exact, reppin the capital city to the fullest. I started going to private school at the age of 2 and stayed at this same school until I was 14 1/2. After leaving said school, I got my first taste of public school my 9th grade year, and I can honestly say that it was THE BEST school year of my life! Since the public school I attended was a "junior high", I left the next year, and attended a magnet school. This particualr magnet school is one of the best in the state, and IMO THE BEST in my city!!! 10th grade year was very challenging and my grades were proof of that. I went from making straight A's and B's to making a D here and there. 11th grade year was pretty tough too, but a certain teacher (my English teacher), provided me the skills I would need to get thru 12th grade Britt Lit and my first two semesters at college.

By 12th grade year (which was probably my second best year of secondary school), I was just ready to get the hell up outta high school. The underclassmen seemed so small, and the dreams of me and all my classmates seemed too big to hold in that small, old ass building! We were ready to break FREE!!!

It should be mentioned that by 8th grade, I already knew what school I wanted to go to. And by 11th grade year, when we had to start applying (Magnet schools get a move on), my school of choice was the ONLY one I applied to. While friends were filling out apps to 5,6,7 colleges, I was content with my one, and in my heart, I knew that was where I was going to be.

I received my acceptance letter to the University of Alabama at Birmingham in late October, early November of 2005. After graduation my dream became a reality when I attended New Student (Freshman) Orientation in late June of '06! I KNEW I was in LOVE with the school the moment my mom's trailblazer rolled into B'ham and we saw the signs with "UAB" on them...I was SOOO HAPPY!! :-)

I made Dean's List both semesters, was invited to and joined Alpha Lambda Delta (Freshman Honor Society), and participated in and LOVE UAB's GOSPEL CHOIR, headed by Bishop Kevin P. Turner!!! My freshman year was a blast, but know what?

I think sophomore year is gonna be EVEN BETTER! And stuff is already falling into place. One of my good friends I made freshman year is coming back up with a car (yes we were car-less first year), my homie BJ has a car and can drive down from Tennessee to see me over SB, I move into a new dorm and get my own room! So je suis content!

But to my future plans (academic-wise)...well, my major is Biology. I'm minoring in French and Chemistry. My favorite classes in school have been my two English Comp classes (love, love, love my 101 teacher). I want to master in forensic science and hopefully become a lab tech/ DNA analysis specialist some day...can you tell I like CSI...I love it (the original)! All day, baby, all...day....

My long term goals are to become closer to Christ. Have a better relationship with my little brother (cuz we loathe each other at the present moment), get married, and have 3 children...

That is all...

Time for...new beginnings...My Introduction

Hello, web...My name is C.Sha b.k.a. SHY, I'm 19 years old, and no stranger to the blogworld. I've always had an interest in reading (extensively) and writing. My writing spans from poems, to songs, to short stories, to A+ papers in the classroom. Writing is my medium and helps me best explain my thoughts.

As far as creating my own blog...well yeah, I'm new to this (if I don't include my 16-post blog on myspace)...but I'd like to give this thing a try, and I feel like I'd much better be able to express myself here than on open forums, facebook, or myspace (where things are moderated and reported for the slightest offense). My sincerest wish is that if someone happens to find my little corner of the web, that they enjoy what they read, offer comments, suggestions and commentary or whatever. If not, oh the f*** well...

With that said, to date my favorite blog is Crunk and Disorderly (hope to be linking soon). I mostly lurk, but things are just done so well there. FYI, C+D is mainly an entertainment/gossip blog where you can find out all the latest info on (mainly) African American celebs/politicians etc.

I tried to do a mini-something like what she [Fresh, the owner of C+D] does on the daily one time on facebook, but I burned out on it quick. I also had my own web-site hosted by freewebs a couple of years ago, and it was more in the style of social commentary (with movie and cd reviews, discussions on prevelant issues among teens, some celeb gossip, and a section with my and friends' poems and short stories). Somewhere that's GREEN is not the place to come lookin for the latest juice on your favorite celeb...that won't be here (most of the time)...Poems, stories, commentary, thoughts, a look into my life as I see it, will be what you get. If you don't like it, tough tits! I have major ideas...major...and I wanna share them with the world...It's going to take time though... I'm long winded as HELL!!! But yes, I guess this will do it for my introduction!!