The Poetry Corner

The rain is coming down hard in the GUMP, and I am in such a creative mood. Inspiration comes from the strangest places, and I'm not quite sure where mine came from, but whatever. I shot out two poems today, and would like to share them!!!! The subject is my ILLUSTRIOUS ORGANIZATION, ALPHA KAPPA ALPHA SORORITY, INC.

1. ALPHA KAPPA ALPHA, DEAR!

Her first love may be DST

But that has not one thing to do with me.

My first love is of an “OH SO PRETTY” history

A legacy of sophistication, pride, and dignity.

Stuck-up, never. Classy, forever!

Conceited, not. It’s confidence that I’ve got!

My 20 pearls shine and glisten as I pass;

My founders ensured perpetuity

So that my wonderful sisterhood could last.

100 years strong, we’ve stood the test;

I know that Alpha Kappa Alpha is the best!

You don’t have to tell me, I already know.

Through service and sisterhood, our greatness shows.

You may think my choice was a mistake,

But no my friend, your thoughts, you, a fool they make.

See, what attracted me to this illustrious organization,

Was its founders’ determination, the class,

And its high ethical and moral foundation.

Tell me what you’ve got my friend?

Or why your inquiries about my sisterhood seem to never end?

Is it because perhaps you are the one who made a mistake?

Is it because your sisterhood seems to be so fake?

I entreat you to worry about you and yours.

Alpha Kappa Alpha is well-able to follow its own course.

Why? We’ve done it for 100 years!

It wasn’t easy, for it took much blood,

Plenty of sweat, and oceans of tears.

I know that my commitment to this sisterhood

Is a blessing from God, and it should be understood

That anybody who thinks otherwise

Chose to settle for less, which is something I despise.

A-K-A, I pledge to always love thee.

A-K-A, I say proudly, SKEE-WEE!!!!

--Soror Shy, May 15, 2008

2. BOOM, HONEY!

My pinky high up in the air
I really love to shake my hair.
You see always me see looking good.
I know you really wish you could.
The big thing is, I don’t have to try.
I’m an A-K-A, so I was born FLYY
Your boyfriend really thinks I’m fine.
If I blew him a kiss, he’d soon be mine.
I check my mirror every day,
See haters always look my way.
“Skee-Wee”, I say with head held high
My nose is way up to the sky.
OH YES, I think I’m ALL OF THAT
Those other girls are OH SO WACK
You punch a mirror in front of me?
Girl, SIT DOWN, we know you’re ugly!
You thought that was a cute diss-connection,
HAHAHA trick, you just punched your own reflection!
So what does that mean to lil ole me?
Means I look good, a true, natural BEAUTY!
Oh honey, don’t you realize,
It’s because of my founders you are alive.
So next time you decide to fix your mouth toward A-K-A
Think twice, keep that mouth shut, and let it stay that way!

-Soror Shy (Iota Phi), May 15, 2008

Hope y'all like em...I sure as heck do!!! :-) Skee-wee my sorors, I'll HOLLA!

I's going back to WORK today

Yes, people! I start back at the RSA today. I'm a lil excited, a lil nervous, a lil sleepy even. But crazy thing is, I could not stay sleep last night. Lately a lot of my nights have been restless. I can't really say I'm stressed out about school and my grades, cuz hey, it is what it is. I think it moreso has to do with anticipation of the future, specifically the next coming weeks and months. I have so much to do and plan for...I dunno. Then I'm always thinking about him, and what he's doing, and what he's thinking about, and why I can't be where he is.

I need something to happen between us stat. Some words of encouragement to be exchanged or something....I just want to talk to him. I returned his phone call last night to get NOTHING and then sent him a text message and got NOTHING. Last time this happened the end results were not pretty, he was back with his ex and I thought we would never be cool again.

Is it normal to care about somebody, but feel like you shouldn't care because of extinuating circumstances? I feel that way sometimes when it comes to him. I, in some way, feel WRONG for liking him because of who his best friend is, who his cousin is...I mean, I feel like there is some unspoken tension between me and his best friend, who I consider a friend, but after some stuff went down with the previously mentioned incident, I don't think things will ever be the same.

People care about LOYALTY...and in most cases it's all in who you've known longer. I believe that depending on the situation, yes that logica is relevant, but in matters of the heart, it shouldn't be. You can't help who you love, or in my case, like... ...
If I could flick a switch and not care about him anymore, I wouldn't flick it. I feel like if folks can't be happy for us if we end up together then they were never friends to either one of us to begin with.

I feel like I have so much to tell him, but we're in that phase now that I usually get in with most guys I talk to. It's like we're calling each other now, but have no conversation, really. We've practically talked about EVERYTHING under the sun, avoiding deep discussion of relationships, marriage, and children. But now it's like awkward silence 47% of the time :-(. I don't know what to do, but it's nothing new, I guess.

I just want him to be happy, that's all. But I'd love it if he could be happy with me. Yeah we live far apart from each other...but "ain't no mountain high enough"...ya know? I somehow wish he could read this blog, understand my feelings and tell me how he feels. Cuz I don't know...or maybe I do, I just want to hear him say it. But he often does not give me what I want...I have to in some way work for it...he doesn't spoon-feed me compliments, or boost me up. I was so surprised when he complimented me on my pink dress I wore to the Alpha probate. He said i looked, "sexy". I wish he coulda seen the look on my face!

But that's the thing. He truly doesn't know how he makes me feel, and I guess he wo't know unless I tell him, but I just don't know the words to say. My BIGGEST problem is that I'm afraid of losing him, and I don't want to scare him away...what to do?

I know if I never tell him how I feel I will lose him eventually...tried that once...it worked, but it didn't. Guess I can say it got my foot in the door. But when it's all said and done....does he want me...like I want him....FOR REAL?

TAKE A PICTURE!!!! It'LL lAsT lOnGeR!

Time for me to post the pictures from the beginning of my journey as an ALPHA KAPPA ALPHA woman. I just love technology! So I decided to put the pics in slideshows made from photobucket.com! Hope you enjoy!!!!