for him for his birthday...not like he'll ever see it. Like to read it? Here it goes...
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It’s not exactly crystal clear when I told you I liked you
Not knowing how you would respond,
Or if you’d feel it too.
I put myself out on a limb, to see if you would care
I opened my mouth to speak the words,
But Lord, they just weren’t there.
How could I tell you that like a child
You make my feel inside.
I want to run into your arms, but
Instead I run and hide.
But somewhere deep inside my heart
I know that I should say
What’s on my heart, and mind, and soul
With each passing of the day.
I don’t quite know exactly when my palms began to sweat
Or when I’d look away from you, oh had our brown eyes met.
I know one day I sat up in a hard ass dorm room chair
I liked you then, you silly boy, with your long, black, wool-like hair
You are brown, and tall, and lanky, why yes this much is true
I must admit, you caught my eye, and made me notice you.
Your smile and laugh, boy, oh my God,
It brightens up my day.
I never knew that you, my friend, could make me feel this way.
And so from there, somewhere, one day, we soon became good friends.
I’ll tell you this, I never want this friendship with you to end.
So on that day I looked down at my Motorola phone
And read the message that you had a new love, I knew
I was alone.
I will not lie and say that I in no way felt betrayed
But quite the contrary, I felt a rage, and yes, quite dismayed.
“How could you?” I continued to ask myself, with each crumble
Of my heart
“Just throw my feelings out the door, not one piece, but the whole part?”
I did not know that you had had a great epiphany
That you should be with someone who you thought would never ever leave.
I did, however, know that you wanted some security.
But honestly look me in my eyes and tell me that you don’t care,
About me, the way that I for you, and that there is no bond we share.
I want you, to want to need me, but not to that extent.
It is not fair to house your feelings in a little tent.
And keep them all for my own gain, and fail to realize
That you are you, you like who you like, it’s not for
Me to decide.
It’s undeniable, a strong connection that I feel with you.
No other guy has broken my shell, made me think the way
You do.
It’s so emotional to think of if you were to ever go
Why I care for you so much, man I don’t even know.
It’s crazy how it makes me feel, just to hear your voice
How could I not fall hard for you, not like I had a choice.
We’ve had our share of ups and downs,
I’m sure there will be more.
But I am ready, and I hope you are,
For whatever God has in store.
--Candice S. White, May 23, 2008
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
I wrote a poem...
Thursday, May 15, 2008
The Poetry Corner
The rain is coming down hard in the GUMP, and I am in such a creative mood. Inspiration comes from the strangest places, and I'm not quite sure where mine came from, but whatever. I shot out two poems today, and would like to share them!!!! The subject is my ILLUSTRIOUS ORGANIZATION, ALPHA KAPPA ALPHA SORORITY, INC.
1. ALPHA KAPPA ALPHA, DEAR!
Her first love may be DST
But that has not one thing to do with me.
My first love is of an “OH SO PRETTY” history
A legacy of sophistication, pride, and dignity.
Stuck-up, never. Classy, forever!
Conceited, not. It’s confidence that I’ve got!
My 20 pearls shine and glisten as I pass;
My founders ensured perpetuity
So that my wonderful sisterhood could last.
100 years strong, we’ve stood the test;
I know that Alpha Kappa Alpha is the best!
You don’t have to tell me, I already know.
Through service and sisterhood, our greatness shows.
You may think my choice was a mistake,
But no my friend, your thoughts, you, a fool they make.
See, what attracted me to this illustrious organization,
Was its founders’ determination, the class,
And its high ethical and moral foundation.
Tell me what you’ve got my friend?
Or why your inquiries about my sisterhood seem to never end?
Is it because perhaps you are the one who made a mistake?
Is it because your sisterhood seems to be so fake?
I entreat you to worry about you and yours.
Alpha Kappa Alpha is well-able to follow its own course.
Why? We’ve done it for 100 years!
It wasn’t easy, for it took much blood,
Plenty of sweat, and oceans of tears.
I know that my commitment to this sisterhood
Is a blessing from God, and it should be understood
That anybody who thinks otherwise
Chose to settle for less, which is something I despise.
A-K-A, I pledge to always love thee.
A-K-A, I say proudly, SKEE-WEE!!!!
--Soror Shy, May 15, 2008
I really love to shake my hair.
You see always me see looking good.
I know you really wish you could.
The big thing is, I don’t have to try.
I’m an A-K-A, so I was born FLYY
Your boyfriend really thinks I’m fine.
If I blew him a kiss, he’d soon be mine.
I check my mirror every day,
See haters always look my way.
“Skee-Wee”, I say with head held high
My nose is way up to the sky.
OH YES, I think I’m ALL OF THAT
Those other girls are OH SO WACK
You punch a mirror in front of me?
Girl, SIT DOWN, we know you’re ugly!
You thought that was a cute diss-connection,
HAHAHA trick, you just punched your own reflection!
So what does that mean to lil ole me?
Means I look good, a true, natural BEAUTY!
Oh honey, don’t you realize,
It’s because of my founders you are alive.
So next time you decide to fix your mouth toward A-K-A
Think twice, keep that mouth shut, and let it stay that way!
Saturday, November 3, 2007
I thought about it and...
*this is the spoken word piece I was talking about...I wrote it a couple of nights ago when I really got to thinking about some situations I've been thru with guys. This piece is specifically about 3 different guys in 3 different stages or points in my life...Hope you like it!*
Life is too short to pass up opportunities to get to know someone
Life is too short to decide it’s not worth it to smile and say hello
I, myself am tired of wondering “what if”—I really am
I deserve to be happy too
Like she said…I just want someone that I can be happy about seeing everyday
That’s all I want too…
And low and behold, I spot you, take interest and wait
And wait, and wait, and wait, and wait
Throw hints, make remarks
Secretly (so I think) investing so much time on my appearance
“Changing”, in a way, all to impress you
All just to get you to GLANCE my way…
It’s tiring and I cry about it
I beat myself up about it, and wonder why?
What’s wrong with me? How come I can’t get him to see?
Did I ignore your feelings back then?
Was I oblivious to YOUR advances?
I apologize…
Karma’s no joke.
Now you’re happy, and with another…or you were with her all along
Dare I say it
Oh well, nothing I can do about it
“How you get him is how you lose him”
She said that too, and it’s OH SO TRUE
I’m deciding to take it slow
Focus on me, getting my life straight
Making a checklist of things about ME I want to change—for me—this time.
There’s a lot wrong with me, but I never claim to be perfect
Or anywhere near it
I’m vulnerable, shy, sensitive, and a bit paranoid
And…
Yes, I’m boy-crazy
I’ve discovered that’s some of the problem
BOY-CRAZY…yeah…I can be crazy about them, without acting on it
And then it happens.
O….M…G…
Never thought…and wondering how and why
Am I deserving?
Then she asks me, “Why do people receive a blessing and still question God?”
I felt bad, cuz she’s right
He didn’t have to do it, but He did
And now I feel special again, in the context of feeling “liked”
Or whatever
I go with the flow…hoping that the current takes me on a looooooooong journey
With Prince Charming
One that I’m willing to go through the good and the bad for
Maybe that’s the problem right there…Prince…who?
Nevertheless…
It’s amazing and I hope things stay this way for a while
Or better yet progress
I used to like you
Maybe I still do
But damn it, if I can’t get you to see it, let alone understand it…
Silly rabbit, tricks are for kids
And I’m so tired of the games
YOU’VE GOT TO KNOW…really…
You don’t?
It’s not obvious?
Always been afraid of rejection
And seems like you know that
And you’re capitalizing on that
You want me to come out and say it
To tell you how I REALLY feel…
3 words…
WON’T BE ABLE!!!
